Here & There.
Today is today,
I woke up with a clear mind & open heart
With the realization that starting new things are hard
And they hurt sometimes
Mostly in that place that never got the care and love it desired
The place that’s now on full display for the world to see
And judge and comment
I figure there was a time in our collective connection when unfurling these
forgotten parts of ourselves were held & protected by those around us
And maybe that still exists
Maybe if we slow down
Release the fear of running out of time
Reconnect, ask for help
Not with our voice but with a signal
I want to get back to that place
It’s closer than we might think.
xJas
p.s. hi, it’s been a bit. not sure what this is turning into but needed a place to share the thoughts that have been hibernating in my notes. thanks for being here
Here & There.
I’ve been having this visceral fear of running out of time lately. It feels like it’s taken me so long to finally discover “the thing”, to finally synthesize ideas and concepts into a tangible vehicle--that--to slow down even a tick or take the time to refine even a little bit, in my mind, pushes “the thing” over to the edge of :: this will never happen. Very dramatic haha! What I’ve found is that “the thing” is me and it is always being expressed, it is always impacting something, someone, somewhere so I can’t run out of time to do something that already exists. It’s a daily dance. 🪩 Thanks always for sharing your notes with us !
So great to hear from you Jas ✨ I have also struggled with the notion of running out of time and its terrifying. Then I remember that time is a human construct and I feel better 😂 but it took me a long time to be chill about it, I was always on a track race against myself. I believe “running out of time” is also part of societies conditioning that once we reach a certain age we start to lose value (which is absolutely ridiculous). Sending you love Jas!